| Location | Enfield |
| Age | 57 years |
| Cause of Death | Stroke |
| Date of Birth | 20/12/1948 |
| Date of Death | 08/07/2006 |
| Visitors | 1,734 since 26/08/2009 |
| Creator |
my mum was a really great mum and a wonderful nanny her family was her world, and i have to believe she will live on in our hearts and her beautiful grandchildrens hearts forever. this is the biggest shock of my life, i tell daniel nearly every day smile your mum wants to see u smile, but inside my heart is broken just like his, beverley & adam. my sons had so much more to learn from their nan, ryan loved his nan so much, just as, ben, danielle, ashley, & louis,at least their hearts are full of memories of the fun times they all had with their nanny, but my other son ronnie was born 6 weeks after my mum passed away, my mum was really looking foward to be a nan again, then in december 2006 johnny was born. i felt my life was perfect with my mum in it, im still so lost without her, life is so unfair. i should of told her what a great mum she was every day.it is now 3 years since, & its just as hard. people ask if it gets any easier?? well not for me it dont!! yeah life goes on, cos it has to for my boys & my younger brother, thats why i look strong but deep down if i didnt ave them, everyone would no my world fell apart when my mum died.. for the 1st time in my life i felt lost & scared i couldnt breathe & i needed my mum...i didnt no grief & i NEVER wanna no it again. i also felt very selfish. WHY MY MUM??? she never hurt anyone, people say the good die young, that dont help when their talkin bout your mum, well i wish she ad kicked a few old ladies in the ankle while waitin for her bus instead of tellin them how wonderful her grandchildren are.ryan has a heart ful of memories of the adventures he had wiyh his nan, ronnies only has a great imagination & his dreams of the adventures hes ad with his nanny. but of course all they really ave is nannys garden (my mum grave) she would be so proud of thier gardenin skills.. my boys are proper boys hate pink, girls etc but my mum was still meant to see them pass thier drivin tests, meet thier 1st girlfriends, & maybe just maybe see them marry, i no she will be there in our hearts, but i also no she would much rather be there herself, & again i will be askin why my mum?? life is really unfair!!every day im reminded my mum is missin from my life, by every little thing my boys do & say she isnt ere to enjoy all those things that we should be sharing with her she was such a hands on nan, playin wiv her grandchildren was never a chore. i still have so many questions that need answering?. nobody can give me the answers. that really hurts.normally when something bad happens, i can nearly always change it to the way i want it, and i couldnt do that for my mum, i just had to except the decission was made & no matter how much i cry & shout & get round people to get my own way, i couldnt have my mum back. until the day my mum died i was a girl who was very used to gettin her own way. i hope my boys are HAPPY cos they are what i live for. i wish i told my mum how great my childhood was because she was my mum, iam proud you were my mum, i no i was a nasty cow at times, back then i never see a day you wouldnt be with me. MY MUM WAS GREAT, i hope she nos that, she tault me so many life & parentin skill without me realisin until i started writin how wonderful she is... we miss you every day & love you loads.xxxxx
The moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of that wonderful mother of mine.
The birds never sing but a message they bring
Of that wonderful mother of mine.
Just to bring back the time, that was so sweet to me,
Just to bring back the days, when I sat on her knee.
I pray every night to our Father above,
For that wonderful mother of mine.
I ask Him to keep her as long as He can
That -- wonderful mother of mine.
There are treasures on earth, that made life seem worthwhile,
But there's none can compare to my mother's smile.
You were a wonderful mother, dear old Mother of mine.
You'll hold a spot down deep in my heart,
Till the stars no longer shine.
Your soul shall live on forever,
On through the fields of time.
For there'll never be another to me,
Like that wonderful Mother of mine.
God bless Joan xxx
.♥.ೋღღೋ WITH LOVEღೋღೋ.♥...
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ೋღ♥ღೋ♥ Still Here ♥ೋღ♥ღೋ
Today I knew you were lonely,
I was watching while you cried,
I wanted to reach out and touch you,
Let you know I was by your side.
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It hurts me to see you grieving,
For I know you can't understand,
If only just for one moment,
You could feel the touch of my hand.
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Beyond the veil that divides us,
I'm only a heartbeat away,
Though my life on earth is over,
I am walking beside you each day.
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As the sun rises in the morning,
I can still share the beauty with you,
Here in my heavenly home,
I see from a different view.
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I hear your sighs in the evening,
When a myriad of stars are aglow,
I sense that you are remembering,
The love that we shared long ago.
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Tonight when sleep beckons you,
In dreams you'll sense me draw near,
When the sun rises in the morning,
Remember my love I'm still here.
God bless Joan xxx
A MOTHER'S MESSAGE
FROM HEAVEN ⊱♥⊰
I see you, darling, all the time,
I know everything you do,
Would you believe, my dearest child
I'm even closer now to you.
For I can see inside your mind,
Indeed, inside your heart,
I even know you better now,
Than I did before, sweetheart.
I've always loved you - you know that,
But maybe now I love you more,
I love the adult that you've become,
Just as I loved the child before.
I know how much you miss me, honey,
Well, I miss you, too,
I miss our talking and our laughing,
And all we used to do.
Whether you are six or sixty,
You'll always be my precious child,
You're the baby that I carried,
And the adult that's helped me smile.
What you need to understand,
Though death has taken me away,
Is that I've not left you, darling,
I am still with you today.
Honey, I could never leave you,
God, of course, would not want that,
Physically, we are apart,
But our hearts are still attached.
I love you all the time,
You cannot get away from me,
That's the way a Mother is,
Right into eternity.
Every day I'm with you
I see you from above,
And I want for you to know
How very much you're loved.
God bless Joan xxxx
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I Think Of You So Often -
I think of you so often,
And I think of you with love.
I think about you, watching me,
From heaven up above.
I think of you so often,
But sometimes, it’s with tears,
As I recall the loving times,
We had throughout the years.
I think of you so often,
And long to see your face,
Laughing eyes and sense of fun,
No one can take your place.
I think of you so often,
It breaks my heart to know,
That you are in another place,
Where I am not ready to go.
I think of you so often,
But know that one sweet day,
We will be together again,
And I will get to say.
God bless Joan xxx
ALWAYS IN MIND
⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰
Time has stood still for those who love you,
the grief is still fresh, their hearts are still blue.
Memories can ease pain but they never can fill,
the space that is left when they think of you still.
So stay near to those who miss you each day,
for they carry a sadness since you went away.
Send the strength to cope where others have tried,
and some love for their hearts that hurt deep inside.
⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰ ⊱♥⊰
God bless Joan xxx
God gave us a mother,
And He tried to be fair,
And when He gave us ours
We got more than our share.
Although He took her back
We are so grateful for
The years He let her stay.
She always leaned to watch for
us
Anxious if we were late,
In winter by the window,
In summer at the gate.
And though we mocked her tenderly
Who took such foolish care,
The long road home
Would seem more safe,
Because she waited there.
Her thoughts were all so full of us,
She never would forget,
And so I think that where she is
She must be waiting yet.
Waiting till we come home to her
Anxious if we are late,
Watching from Heaven's Window
Leaning o'er Heaven's Gate
Years of striving, little of play,
Loving, giving, the whole of the way;
A cherished smile, a heart of gold,
To the dearest mother a world could hold.
Happy memories, fond and true,
From us who thought the world of you.
Your presence we miss,
Your memory we treasure;
Loving you always,
Forgetting you never.
We miss her love and cheery ways;
With her we spent our happiest days.
In memory we see her the same;
As long as we live, we'll cherish her name.
Always a smile instead of a frown,
Always a hand when one was down;
Always true, faithful and kind,
Wonderful memories she left behind.
What is home without a mother?
All things this world may send,
But when I lost my mother,
I lost my dearest friend.
Though her smile is gone forever
And her hand we cannot touch.
Still we have so many memories
Of the one we loved so much.
Loving and kind in all her ways,
Upright and just to the end of her days;
Sincere and true, in her heart and mind.
Beautiful memories left behind.
Its seems a thousand years ago
Since God called you away.
And we who loved you most of all
Miss you more each day.
My lips cannot tell how I miss
her,
My heart cannot tell what to say;
God alone knows how I miss her,
In a home that is lonesome today.
Dear Mother, you are not forgotten
Though on earth you are no more
Still in memory you are with us
As you always were before.
God bless Joan xxx
I'm trying to face the hours
Trying to make it through,
I was right when I said,
There's nobody quite like you.
And I can't bring you back,
And it tears me up inside,
When I feel so broken from you,
I just want to hide
Nothing has been the same,
My heart is truly broken,
And when I close my eyes,
I can feel my wounds re-open.
I feel so lost with out you,
I don't feel so strong,
I've felt so lonely,
Since you've been gone.
And I'm stuck here crying,
Trying to make it through,
But it's so hard to go on,
Just so hard with out you.
God bless Joan xxx
Why is our heart breaking.
When we think of you,
Why is our body aching
With our memories so true,
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Why did you have to go,
We need you now today,
Its because we love you so,
In each and every way,
⋱♥⋰
We will try and keep on going,
We will try to keep so strong,
But you should be here beside us.
In our home where you belong.
⋱♥⋰
GOD BLESS JOAN XXX
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It’s New Years Eve
The clock strikes twelve
The church bells ring
As another New Year begins
We are hoping for better things
The one thing we want more than anything
Is to have you here with us
But that remains a dream
Dreams of the past
Are all that remain
When we were all together
Celebrating with joy in our heart
And days full of smiles and laughter
Now they are dreams of the past
No matter what
The New Year will begin
Our hearts are filled with sorrow and pain
Our tears will fall from our eyes like rain
We just want the dreams of the past
All we want in this New Year
Is to feel you ever near
Your smile
Your love
Your presence
Your touch
Those are the things we want so much
Another year begins
And all we have
Are dreams of the past
With hope for a better year
Happy New Year Joan xxxxx
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*ღ*~*ღ*~*ღ*~*ღ*
No matter what i do
All i think about is you
But all my precious memories
Lead me back to you
*ღ*~*ღ*~*ღ*~*ღ*
What i wouldnt give each day
To have you by my side
A special kind of loving
I never had to hide
*ღ*~*ღ*~*ღ*~*ღ*
You made my life worth living
Now what am i to do ?
For every minute of the day
My heart will ache for you
*ღ*~*ღ*~*ღ*~*ღ*
Im so sad without you
And i know i must go on
Still feeling you around me
To guide and make me strong
God bless Joan xxxx
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